It’s a fear of failure. One so strong that you forget who you are and what you really want in life. At one point in time, I wanted to join the Peace Corps. I want to become an artist because something innate in me wants to experience life, interpret it and share it. I was sarcastic as hell, sometimes acerbic, hugely real and a true ENTJ.
But expectations from parents and competition to keep at the top has worn me down. I’m not taking it anymore. This is the end of censoring myself. On janyxu.com and everywhere else.
The internets is so damn open nowadays. One wrong post or rant and what will my future employers think? Will my elementary school friends think less of me? Well, this is me. No, I’m not going to rant and rave at work. Nor will I be quite so blunt and tactless. But somewhere out there, there’s a real me. And I’m tired of writing tens of drafts, only to be too concerned with public perception to push the “Publish” button.
To hell with it. Even if I write industry related posts, this is still my personal blog. I’m taking back my “online personal brand.”
I’m a great marketer with a firm grasp on branding strategies, industry analysis, positioning statements, and vendor relations along with web/graphic design expertise, Social Media savvy and solid record of ROI. That’s what employers should look at and ask for.
These are my ruminations. You’re welcome to read them, comment and give your feedback. But how I’m perceived online should be controlled by me. My professional profile is available and will be available soon. My personal online life deserves an equal, yet divided setting. What I write shouldn’t affect my work (in a perfect environment).