I feel like I’ve been crying for a year. And I’m so scared of being jaded and losing my optimism and belief that I’ll ever find someone to ‘gets’ me. Every day I’m either in tears or in rage. It’s draining.
The only thing I want is love, but I don’t know how to get it.
I try to be aloof, but my mind has been filled with him since I left over an hour ago. I keep trying to stretch my heart to fill what we both want. We stand at opposite ends of a spectrum. And I can’t trust that he will ever be mine. Or want to be.
Perhaps the future will brighten my perspective. Maybe it’s time to leave the hurt behind. Along with the love. But it’s so, so hard.
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