You have to understand. I don’t want anything from you. You have given me so much just by allowing me to be in your life. You don’t think you have, but you have. Look, I’d be satisfied just to be your friend, and if that’s all you want to be, then I’m fine with it. Don’t worry about me. You don’t have to give me your decision now, but when you’re ready, I’ll be here.
Listen. I didn’t think I could go through with this again. I’ve done it all. Everything that I wanted, God has given me. I keep fucking it up… but that’s beside the point. But when I got to know you that night, I knew I loved you. I knew I could give you my heart, and even if you ripped it out and spit back at me again, I’d be okay with that. Because you’re perfect. You’re perfect. And nothing will change that.
Just give me two or three years. Then, I’ll get you your ring. Whatever you want. That $30,000 pearl necklace or that 2.5 carat Tiffany’s ring. Fuck it. We’ll go 3. I just need time right now to heal and get my stuff sorted out. Then, we can go. I want to start a new life with you. I know you want to move back to the Northeast, so we’ll go back to Philly. We’ll have several houses. I know real estate guys, and I have the skills to fix these places up, and I will fucking learn and make it work with things I don’t know how to do. Work six months, and have the rest of the time for you and the boys. I’ll never leave my boys… but for you, we’ll move east. We can fly back to visit.
We’ll have two children. Hopefully, you’ll give me a daughter finally. But if not, I’ll just keep having sons. It doesn’t matter. Whatever makes us happy. As long as nothing gets in between the two of us, fuck the rest of them. We don’t need them. Just promise me that. Promise me you’ll never let anyone get between us. That’s all I ask for you.
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I love you.
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