Have you ever wanted to cry, throw up, and slit your wrists all at the same time? No? Im happy for you. I understand that at the end of the day ill be stronger for it, and ill find the person who’s truly right for me, in theory. In reality, life is throwing a hell of a hard ball right now. The tears are coming in waves and I can’t stop them. I have no idea when I’ll just bust out crying and that’s pretty scary because I still have to work and function as a person. Thankfully I know that I’m strong and I have a great support system here. I’m really blessed for that, and somewhere in my heart I’ll always love Ty, but I guess he’s just not the right person for me. I’ve really cleared a great hurdle, which is that love does exist and I am capable of loving someone so hard it makes me want to die to be without him. The next goal is to find someone who loves me just as strongly back. At least I hope that person is out there somewhere. Please? Pretty please?
haha thilly thenny is now pitiful thenny… Hehehe. Anyways off to bed I go, pray my soul the lord something will keep and all that jazz. Night, world. May you be kinder to me tomorrow than you were today. *muah!* love you
