My birthday has come and gone, and for the first time, it’s just royally sucked. There isn’t really a better way to put it. Friday (my actual birthday), I wanted to die. Saturday, Ty made me want to tear my hair out. Sunday, I wanted to die again. Of course it all makes sense. A [...]
Entries from July 2007
July 30, 2007
*scream*
nothing makes me feel better… not yelling, not screaming, not ignoring the problem. i just feel like shit!
blah!
July 30, 2007
Nope… it wasn’t me
Note: I’m going through a lot of random emotions right now, so what I may say right now or tomorrow or yesterday does not necessarily mean that’s how I always feel. Yes, I’m being a little psychotic, but you know what? Loving someone hurts when they don’t love you back. And if you’re offended by my posts, there’s a [...]
July 29, 2007
i am such a bitch
Maybe i never really loved Ty. Instead it’s just a reflection of myself that I see, and that’s basically the only person in the world I really care about. Maybe I’m just that selfish and horrible, and I’m going to rot alone until my cholestrol clogged arteries finally give in.
Why else would I be such [...]
July 29, 2007
blah to birthdays
to men
to people
to myself
to just everything
I’m so frustrated with myself and with him right now. Yes, I understand that there isn’t a standard for how one must act in order to care or love someone. But! most people around me seem to agree that there is a certain set of behaviours. Rationally I don’t think [...]
July 26, 2007
the weekend sucks… yeah i said it
I think the reason I’ve been faily sane this week, when in fact I should be barely able to get out of bed, is that it’s still the week. We usually don’t get to see each other during the week. Each of us is busy in our own way. But now that the weekend’s arriving, [...]
