Entries from July 2007

July 31, 2007

all i want for my birfday is… a whole honkin’ lot of errthin’!!

My birthday has come and gone, and for the first time, it’s just royally sucked.  There isn’t really a better way to put it.  Friday (my actual birthday), I wanted to die.  Saturday, Ty made me want to tear my hair out.  Sunday, I wanted to die again.  Of course it all makes sense.  A [...]

July 31, 2007

u= awesome, e= 2 cool 4 skool!

[10:57] thenny: yeah
[10:57] thenny: we’ll see
[10:57] thenny: i’m okay now
[10:57] thenny: i’m sure i’ll be balling at some point
[10:57] thenny: and wanting to punch him at another
[10:57] thenny: just taking it as it comes
[10:57] thenny: and realizing and growing too
[10:57] thenny: 
[10:57] thenny: thanks
[10:57] Rehesieee: muuuuaaaah
[10:57] Rehesieee: mushy mushy muah
[10:57] thenny: hehehe
[10:58] thenny: [...]

July 30, 2007

*scream*

nothing makes me feel better… not yelling, not screaming, not ignoring the problem.  i just feel like shit!
blah!

July 30, 2007

Nope… it wasn’t me

Note:  I’m going through a lot of random emotions right now, so what I may say right now or tomorrow or yesterday does not necessarily mean that’s how I always feel.  Yes, I’m being a little psychotic, but you know what?  Loving someone hurts when they don’t love you back.  And if you’re offended by my posts, there’s a [...]

July 29, 2007

i am such a bitch

Maybe i never really loved Ty.  Instead it’s just a reflection of myself that I see, and that’s basically the only person in the world I really care about.  Maybe I’m just that selfish and horrible, and I’m going to rot alone until my cholestrol clogged arteries finally give in.
Why else would I be such [...]

July 29, 2007

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I really just want to die right now.

July 29, 2007

blah to birthdays

to men
to people
to myself
to just everything
I’m so frustrated with myself and with him right now.  Yes, I understand that there isn’t a standard for how one must act in order to care or love someone.  But! most people around me seem to agree that there is a certain set of behaviours.  Rationally I don’t think [...]

July 26, 2007

the weekend sucks… yeah i said it

I think the reason I’ve been faily sane this week, when in fact I should be barely able to get out of bed, is that it’s still the week.  We usually don’t get to see each other during the week.  Each of us is busy in our own way.  But now that the weekend’s arriving, [...]

July 26, 2007

a few amusements

Since life hasn’t exactly been a stroll in the park lately (or if it is, then more like Crack Alley Park on the corner of You’re Screwed and Haha), I’ve decided to post a few of my favorite things:

According to Mr. Cooper, if you’re driving in Texas, try not to be black or Hispanic, either. [...]

July 23, 2007

hally pottel and the deathry harrows

I can’t believe I forgots to buy Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows this weekend!  Silly me!
Updated: I boughteded it! I boughteded it!